Scared outta my mind

I haven't blogged in forever, I am sorry for that. So here is what's been going on.
Will is doing great. Cancer free and loving his job. Lots of big things going on at his work and he can't get enough. He has been training with me for a 7K race in March and a 10K race in May and hopefully a half marathon in Disneyland in September.
Ellie is thriving in preschool, loves it and is learning to read. She loves art and can't draw me enough pictures. She is so detailed in her pictures, so much like her daddy. I put her on the lottery for a charter school in Castle Pines and she got in for Kindergarten next year and she is so excited. I asked her if she would be sad that she wasn't going to go to school with some of her friends and she said "I'll make new friends mom". She is so grownup. She is loving singing lessons and is currently working on "The Rainbow Connection" as a vocal piece and enjoys singing it. She also loves dance and gets to perform 3 pieces this June at the company's recital. I am slowly introducing piano to her and she is liking it so much.
Abby can't wait for preschool next year and is dying to go. She wants to learn everything that Ellie learns. She loves dance as well. And she wants to sing and learn piano and do anything she can to prove she is a big girl. She is going to be in a pageant tomorrow and we will see how she does. She has so much personality.
I am training for my runs and loving running so much. I am enjoying teaching nursing students, especially now that I actually have students who are interested and can't soak up enough knowledge. It really inspires me to keep teaching and helping them have a great OB experience. I applied for my master's program which would start in the Fall for a Pediatric Nurse Practitioner. I won't find out till July if I get accepted, but hopefully because I am such a nerd, I love school too much and I miss getting grades. Totally dumb I know. I am also going to head up a March of Dimes Walk for St. Joseph's hospital so that is another project that I am excited about.
So to the scary part, I had my yearly exam this past Tuesday and my OB/GYN and I decided that because of my significant family history of breast cancer, it was time to get my first baseline mammogram. So I will get that done on the 17Th of this month and then I also had blood drawn for the Breast Cancer gene. I am super scared just because of the implications of having the gene and what that will mean, but I don't know anything yet. I am just super afraid of leaving my husband and girls. We will see. If I have the gene, I would probably end up getting a double mastectomy and then reconstructive surgery and then if I do have the Breast cancer gene, I am at an increased risk for Ovarian cancer, so my OB/GYN said I would also need to consider getting my ovaries removed. So lots to think about. I guess I am scared, but I am glad that I can be proactive. I will be better about blogging, sorry for my slacking.